What challenges me most will be the fact that my other half is in KL. Before I get married, I have taught myself to be independent and I am so convinced I can do whatever I want. I feel I can choose wherever I want to go...Nobody has a say except for my parents. Yet, having a husband has changed my life so much especially in handling my emotions and adjusting my thinking. Every single second of my life, I think of my husband. Where did this feeling come from? I hardly knew my husband before we get married. We started as friends in 2006, but it was just a small meeting at KL Sentral and we drifted apart. Then we started to become friends in Dec 2008, we met in Jan 2009 and we were married in Mac 2009. In fact, last week I told my husband, when I agreed to marry him in Jan 2009, I was not in love with him. Nevertheless, I was and am very ready to become a wife. We got married and slowly I learn what love is all about. For the first time, I discover that love is not easy to handle. It is not about holding hands only, it is not about sending sms only, it is not about listening to sweet words only...Love is about being there during happy and sad moments. Love is about sacrificing, love is about having the feeling in your heart, in your blood, in your adrenalin. Love is about you getting ready to face all obstacles with your partner. Love is about feeling good to see him next to you in bed, next to you in the car, next to you when you eat and in front of you when you pray together. Love is about fighting and yet laughing at our stupid words during all those fighting moments. Yes, I miss my partner in crime. The feeling is so strong, which put me in a very sad situation especially during the first few months of our marriage. I cried so many times when I miss him, as if I was such a stupid child who lost her kitten. I hardly cry nowadays but the hurt is so deep especially during moments when I need him most, by my side.
To my dear husband, Abd Rahman Roseley...isteri ini sangat bersyukur dianugerahkan suami yang sabar dan pengasih seperti abg...Mohon maaf di atas kedaifan diri isteri ini. Terima kasih kerana banyak memberikan motivasi dan kata-kata semangat untuk ayg teruskan niat untuk sambung belajar. Ayg hargai kesabaran abg ketika ayg stress dan hampir give up.
Sesungguhnya Allah saja tahu betapa banyak cabaran telah kita tempuhi dalam masa 7 bulan ini...berdoalah agar kita terus diberikan kekuatan untuk terus tabah dan cekal serta dipenuhi dengan Mawaddah untuk 7 tahun yang akan datang...untuk 17 tahun, 27 tahun, 37 tahun bersama...hingga akhir hayat...
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